Today was the first day in the studio, and it was the first day I had to put my theory into practice. Myself and Jo began with a catch up and chat about the development in my thinking. After warming up I set an improve to last exactly one hour, during the hour I gave instructions which Jo translated in to movement. The aim of the task was to try to physicalise the feeling that have been swelling up inside me since I discovered I was going to be a father to my second child and second daughter! We will do it every day too see if we can go beyond the obvious!
Whilst observing I developed several other ones but I am constantly barraged by images of how this piece could look, feel, smell. I have to keep pulling myself back and re remind myself that I’m not here to make a new work. I’m here to put my practise under the microscope and dissect my methods as well as research the ideas I have around creating a new piece of work about the fathers experience of the pregnancy process. But after today I have broadened it to the non child carriers experience of the pregnancy process and how one then goes about bonding with their child.
We’ve come up with some questions that I going to post on Facebook/our website as well ask the several people/groups were interviewing. If your reading this and want to help us with our research here are the questions. my email is firstname.lastname@example.org
Questions for the not pregnant partner!
Thank you for taking the time to answer our short questionnaire, all the answers are anonymous and for research purposes only. We will not pass on any information. Please feel free to be as detailed as possible.
Sex M/F. (please circle)
Q1. How did you feel when you found out your partner was pregnant? (for each child if more than one)
Q2. What did you do to bond with your child during pregnancy?
Q3. Did you feel part of the pregnancy? How?
Q4. We’re you present at the birth? If so what was your experience?
Q5. Did you struggle to connect or bond with your child (children)? (please answer as appropriate)
If no why do you think that is?
If yes how did you form a bond?
If yes and you haven’t bonded do you know why that is?
Q6.How is your relationship with your child (children) now?
Q7. Are you the primary care provider?
Q8. Do you feel that you have a stronger/weaker/same connection to you child/children than your partner at this stage in their life?
Q.9 has that shifted over time?
Q10. Would you like to add anything else?
I have lots flying around my head as to where go but I need to keep focused! This is going to be tough!